BloodEcstasy

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Dear World by BloodEcstasy, literature

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Dear World

Dear World, Sometimes in the middle, Of an ordinary, Or fabulous day, Among my amazing boyfriend, My adorable dog, My awesome family, My coolest friends. This recovered girl. Gets caught up in the anxiety, Of everything. Sometimes it isn’t anxiety, Sometimes the chemicals in my head, Get confused. Most of the time, I am happy, And bubbly. Most of the time, I’m an artist, Dancer, Singer, Lover, Confidant, Daughter. But every once and awhile. Something will remind me, Of the pain, The suffering, The abuse, The loss and grief, At that moment, Perhaps even for a day or two. I will snap. The monster wit

To Be Close by BloodEcstasy, literature

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To Be Close

What do you see, When you look at me? Is it just love, That’s flowing through? Always strong, But often weary. I let the sadness, Overtake. Rebuild the conscious choices. Show myself, I have control. Sometimes I need you to hold me, But will you ever learn to show? Vulnerable. Happy all year long. Still tears do overcome me. I snap when nothing’s wrong. Life is so consuming. I wonder. Why you’re still here. I would never leave you. Never leave you dear. Come to me, Not cloaked in shadow, But straight from the light. My hope, My sweet, My angel, In my bed every night. Lead me to my future. Teach

Humans by BloodEcstasy, literature

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Humans

Humans are stupid, Humans are cruel, Humans are idiots, Humans are fool's. People are crazy, People are mean, Good ones are quite few, And far in between. My lack of patience resumes here, Hope for a brighter future resides. I've got you baby, You are kind. You hate if I worry, You'll always be mine. Everything is fine. People are loving, People are kind, People are caring, People are alright. You are a human, My soulmate in fact. Can't find a single thing, About you that lacks. You are the answer, Together find peace.

Let The Right Ones In by BloodEcstasy, literature

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Let The Right Ones In

I still do not fit in, I thought, But I will be myself, My true self, Is the best thing to be, I thought, Things were looking up, For me. Happiness has sat upon my shoulder, To take away this awful weight, Of the horrible things the others said, People will always harm you. Friends will always abandon. Humans are terribly jealous, Of things that shine. If I am myself, They said, I'd let the right ones in. No matter the differences, No matter what ways, We sin. I shall be myself, I said. I'll laugh and play and grin. If I am myself, I said, I'll let the right ones in. Yet still some came that lied, And hurt, Tore up little parts. Took piec

Won't Fade away by BloodEcstasy, literature

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Won't Fade away

Don't get to attached, They say, But it is much to late. I love him more, Then life itself, Hope he won't fade away. He stays up, Dreams of sleep. I rest and hope for him, When I wake up he's usually there, But I know that life's unfair. It's been 6 months, Pray for more. Abandonment issues, Knock at my door. Might die without him in my arms, He is so grand, So full of charms. He's tired now, I understand. Darling, Don't let go of my hand. I call him an angel everyday, Hope that he won't fade away.

What love means by BloodEcstasy, literature

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What love means

I will scream, And he will chase away, The monsters, That creep into my head, At night. I will open my eyes, See his face, He'll hold my hand, They will flee, Swiftly, Silently. I will cry, He will wrap his arms around me. I will relax, And remember that I'm safe. I will dream of beautiful things, Of happy fairytales. He will give those to me, Whenever he can. I will want to better myself, He will support me. However he can. I will need to discuss things. He will listen. He will understand. I will yearn. He will make love to me. I will break our rules, He will forgive me. I will worry. He will be calm. Because he loves me, And that i

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Artist // Hobbyist // Literature

July 19, 1988
United States
Deviant for 18 years
www.myspace.com/bugsy88
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This is the end
Beautiful friend
This is the end
My only friend, the end

It hurts to set you free
But you'll never follow me
The end of laughter and soft lies
The end of nights we tried to die

This is the end

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Personal Quote: “I’m very good at the past. It’s the present I can’t understand.”

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The Breakfast Club

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Supernatural

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Alice In Wonderland

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Twister

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BloodEcstasy

Jan 26, 2010

100 things I learned in the last 3 years..

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1.That online relationships are a really bad idea. 2. So are joining cults. 3. That you are not defined by your past addictions, only how you overcame them. 4.That you shouldn't cry over spilled milk, only spilled ice cream. 5. That people will come in and out of your life, many people many times and that each time they teach you something new and show you more about who you truly are. 6. You never really know who you are until somebody points it out to you. 7. That taking care of people in need is the most rewarding gift you can get. 8. That persistence is key because without it you will never win the war. 9. It was pretty clear that

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BloodEcstasy

Mar 31, 2009

Poetry.com is a scam

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I entered my latest poem into a contest too. HAHA I could win 10,000 dollers. XD So here was excited girl... I was really happy and proud of myself and then I tried to go back to sleep but something was bugging me about it and I called my mom and she said that it was probably a scam tryna steal authors works and I found this.. http://www.writersweekly.com/warnings/poetry.html And now im crying,I've been writing since 5th grade and its one of my big dreams and that poem was special. It wasnt just one of the ones I came up with on a whim.It had my emotions and sadness in it. I dont want them to own it. But I guess if it sounds too good to

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BloodEcstasy

Dec 8, 2008

Moving Along

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I havent fixed this thing in forever! ACK! Okay,if you would like an update and we actually talk on here feel free to add me on Livejournal. I update that daily,often times more then once. http://blood-ecstasy.livejournal.com/profile I'm Faith From BTVS in the DA Crazy-for-Characters Crew! Groups I joined: ~AngelWatchers (https://www.deviantart.com/angelwatchers) :iconJackOffJillclub: :iconLOVE-HIM: :iconRaZoRbLaDeRoMaNcEs: :iconKittyCatCult: :iconCrissAngelClub: :iconCharmed-Club: :icon69-Eyes: :iconsuicide--girls: :iconTimBurton-fans: :iconrocky-horror: :iconDuelingLullaby: :iconAngel-vs-Buffy: :iconCriss-Angel-Fans: :iconHello-Kitty-Fan-Club: :iconLOVE-HIM