Dakota

He went missing last night,
While I dreamt of better endings.
Fighting with his mother while,
My boy held me in his arms.
I was dealing with something,
Kinda like rejection,
He was dealing with his own head.
He grabbed a broken phone or two,
And some pills, hoping to be dead.
Next morning I went searching for,
My best friend told me then,
Told me all about the brother,
Not by blood instead.
I went to the arcades,
Across the river cry.
Don’t know why I even tried,
Well I guess that is a lie.
I love that kid,
He’s gentle but violent all the same.
Never stopped to think about the impulses in his brain.
Where did he go? I said.
She waited for a sign.
Alas he came home bandaged up,
Overdosing on lithium is a crime.
Mommy I still love you,
I’m sick as sick can be.
He’s going to the hospital,
Selfish so is he.

I told my boy about it,
Angry as Hell.
He talked to me a small amount,
Then rang a mission bell.
I questioned why he didn’t quite,
Seem to understand.
My point of view is biased.
Can’t lose another friend,
To suicide.

I told him I was sorry,
No answer his reply.
I called out to him gracefully,
I really do know why.
I have felt that pain before.
I’m sick as sick can be.
So are you and so am I,
But I keep thinking I’m free.

The trigger there regardless,
I think about it now.
My best friend and my boyfriend,
And the brother that nearly drowned.
It doesn’t matter we aren’t related.
Doesn’t matter at all.
All I know is I’ll take his hand,
And pray that we don’t fall.

Dakota. I love you.
Dakota, don’t you see.
Dakota you’re my brother.
Please, don’t..leave..